good morning
August 28, 2009
the new view
August 25, 2009
School starts again tomorrow and I’m sitting in my room tonight not doing a damn thing. Ive made some phone calls, read some last pages in some books that I will likely not crack again till winter, organized the last bit of my closet from the move, and downloaded some Xavier Rudd.
Like one big exhale before all the madness begins again.
Summer flew by.
Early this morning I got a text from Em just as I was waking up, telling me to look outside, “the light is changing.” She was right. Somehow between last weekend and this Tuesday morning before classes resume the sun has settled into a new routine of her own.
my new view,
Ive been avoiding this spot for the past month. I know myself too well, this bright little spot by the window will soon become a makeshift throne of dread, littered with papers and tea cups, bills and post its to myself. In so many ways school gets easier when you get older, but the weight and stress of it never changes. Procrastination is like a disease with me, and so Ive come to some sense of surrender with that. That it will happen. That it will be miserable. That Ill get it done in the end. That Ill repeat the cycle.
There is this T.S. Eliot quote where he asks, “Where is the Life we have lost in the living?”
Last Spring for whatever reason I lost that Life there for a bit, this summer Ive found it again, Id like to keep it that way.
“Live each season as it passes;
August 23, 2009
…. breathe the air, drink the drink, taste the fruit, and resign yourself to the influences of each.”
-Thoreau
last bits of summer
August 22, 2009
the view
August 12, 2009
This summer has been FULL.
It has had me feeling like my 6 year old self, summer and I hand in hand. Except for instead of us skipping along together in bliss, Summer is in some sort of hurry, practically dragging me behind her as I stumble, tripping over my little sparkled jellies, trying desperately to take in all thats around me, wide eyed, my darndest effort to see it all without losing my balance for fear of not keeping up. Theres just been so MUCH to take in.
Tomorrow is my last day of summer semester, and I honestly wish I could stay in these classes for a year. Ive loved them completely.
Just like I loved this completely last weekend.
Ive been lucky enough to do this a few times this summer and it was about time that I took my camera. Just for the single necessity of putting this picture on my wall above my desk so that I can just STARE at it this winter.
